Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Brian/Helen


This is Brian and Helen. I will finish this post in time but this picture sums up a lot that really doesn't need to be said. We're like the 3 amigos....You start with a friendship and maybe there are some rocky times but if you make it through it seems to become stronger. So we became stronger and over the course of time I've been involved in important times in both of their lives and them mine. Weddings, Funerals and Vegas. If that doesn't make you close nothing will. Vegas is a great place to forget and remember all at the same time. I love these 2 people. Merry Christmas to you guys and your families.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Reily...(R.I.P)





I had to put my baby to sleep yesterday...He just ran out of steam...Today is the 1st day coming home without him running out to greet me and its killing me as I type. He was such a gentle little guy. Always. He wouldn't hurt a flee. He had a long and good life and I'm thankful I got to spend the last few months with him. I will refine this post gradually as I'm able but for now this is it. I plan to add our videos here too.....I miss you bug....

ps..the pic of him in the chair with the bag was during Halloween...This was a bag full of candy and he helped me give it out....

our vids
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http://www.vimeo.com/8008561
http://www.vimeo.com/7743947
http://www.vimeo.com/7479928
http://www.vimeo.com/7230076
http://www.vimeo.com/6875480

Since we loved this song...here it is again.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4qz3VcLv2kQ&feature=channel

Reily came into my life in March of 1996. I was away on an adventure and Amy decided to get some company for Miss Maggie. When I got home he was still small enough to walk under her belly. I had been layed off from a job and had some time on my hands so I used to take the 2 of them into the woods for hikes. They were both slow enough running that I never put a leash on because I could chase them down. We got into a routine of waiting about 50 feet from the road and I'd pick them up. All I'd have to say is, 'pick em up' and they'd stop and wait. He kept that habit until his last days. At 1st I thought having 2 dogs would be tough but he learned so quickly and I think Maggie was a big part of that. She was always the bully and he the chicken little. He never did catch on to the bully thing. As time went on they might as well have been one dog they were so easy to live with. Maggie passed in May of 2004 but as luck would have it somebody had given Amy another Maltese and although she is no Maggie she was still company for my little dude. Another shock for the both of us was when I moved back to Maryland in the same year. He lost his big sister and his daddy but as more luck would have it he had a wonderful granddaddy in Albert. Albert loved him much as we did. When I'd come visit he still seemed to know me but so much time had passed it was different as time went on. Skip forward to summer of 2009. He had started to fail somewhat at this point. He'd lost a lot of his vision and being around a kid and other dogs was causing him panic attacks. Amy called and asked what I thought so on August 27, 2009 (Albert's Birthday) she and Big Al brought him to me an although I know it hurt her deeply to let him go she also knew she had no choice. I figured he could stay with me and see how it went. We had a shaky start but he seemed to figure out my house. He put on some weight and seemed to be happy. I knew he didn't have long and was surprised that he lived as long as he did. Long enough for us to get reacquainted and that to me makes all of this grieving worth it. If you don't grieve a loss how can you appreciate what you have....? The newsroom is still quiet tonight but I have those good memories and I know Amy and Albert do too. 1 last thing. I think dogs know something about when their time is near. Maggie waited(I'll use waited as that is what they seem to do) until both Amy and I were away and she died in her sleep next to Albert. She snuggled up and passed away and I think she knew that neither one of us could handle it. I also think Reily found just enough energy to live long enough for us to reacquaint. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Happy Birthday Pop




You would have been 78 years old today. I just want to give a quick thank you for everything you've ever done for me over the years. The #1 thing that keeps re-appearing is you let me have the ability to think for myself. No brainwashing. I've come into trouble in conversation with some of the more brainwashed faithful lately but that's the price I suppose. You had your ideas on things but never forced them on me. The golden rule was always your thing and has been my thing for as long as I can remember. I can remember you asking me if I, 'thanked someone' when a gift or meal was offered. I try to never miss a thank you because what once was just a habit to a little kid is in reality much appreciated by those who hear it. It's all these little things that are still here. I put my seat belt on 99 percent of the time even if I'm going 1 mile to the store because I can hear your voice. (are you buckled up) Leslie wrote a nice post about how you just wanted us to be together on the holidays even though the xmas thing is a commercial nightmare you loved nothing more than buying us things and making us happy. I could go on an on but I won't.....Cheers to you pop....I miss and love you.

Friday, October 23, 2009

All she do is fuss, cuss and moan......

I've recently determined that song lyrics are my scriptures. Music has always been near and dear to my heart and kept me company thru good and bad. I've absorbed a ton of information about musicians who've caught my ear over the years and 1 thing is certain...Sometimes these songs and lyrics come very quickly as if from another energy source. Read about Cat Stevens and he will admit he had no idea what he was writing about in certain songs but they had meaning to others. Shame that undertow got him to give in. Call it divine or don't but in my opinion if we're made in gods image why couldn't a modern day person be a prophet of sorts? Take it one step further and why couldn't anyone in this world who's affected you in a way you will never forget be considered a prophet? I don't think the word should be reserved for 2k plus year old men who we will never know through their own words. I won't go any deeper with this one but I think if somebody inspires or shows you a map of what to expect through their own experience it's invaluable and for me it's songwriters, friends and family and a stranger or 2. If you find your map in religious text, friends or a glass of wine...amen to that as well. Now go fuck yourself and leave me alone, I got music to listen to, friends to write and wine to drink.

modern day prophet(reily)
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http://vimeo.com/7230076

Monday, October 19, 2009

A good week...........





Started out the previous weekend with a Jackie Greene show at the Crystal Bay with Jim and Jackie G....After the show about the time I was drunk he appeared near the Roulette table with similar imbalances. See pics. Next week was spent chilling with Ellie which was nice and Reily got to sing for her. Some pics of it all and the lyrics to a song I took with my little camera in its entirety.----------------
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http://vimeo.com/7053290
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http://picasaweb.google.com/srussel459/EllieOctober2009#
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The poor man’s soul is a diamond made of coal
He’s trying every day to survive
He makes his way, through the night and through the day
Sayin: “don’t it feel so good to be alive?”

Ah but I don’t want to end up like him
For he’s down on his knees every hour to pray
Sayin: “Lord, I been so good, just like I knew I should
So won’t you free me on my judgement day?”

She speaks good French sitting pretty on the bench
But I know she’s only after his Gold
She looks so fine, it’s naturally a crime
But she complains that she’s getting too old

So she tells her mama, that she’s falling in love
With a rich man who can take her far away
But the Wheel of Time, make her change her mind
The hour on her judgement day

Now that girl of mine, she ain’t the gentle kind
All she do is fuss, cuss and moan
Well I tried so hard, but it ain’t in the cards
So I’ll be leaving her alone

And if I’m right mama, you’ll have to sing to me
But if I’m wrong then I won’t be in your way
And if I find myself at the mercy of the law
Won’t you free me on my judgement day?

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Aug/Sep Update - Try not to fall asleep

A Month
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monthly update for my friends who live on mars....hope you don't mind the ME ramble.

I got reily(maltese) back from Amy because basically he's blind and not doing well with her critters. He's a bit of a pinball wizard but he's not dumb or deaf...he's blind, has arthritis and an enlarged heart...so when I first got him back I was stressed but now that I know he may be ok for a bit i'm better...not that anyone gives a shit as they have more serious stuff on their plate....

2nd thing was I had a nice visit from Dwayne and Inday....Dwayne has been my bud forever but as life goes we lose and gain touch....He's recently married and his wife is nothing but pleasant to be around. Showing her things she has never seen is nothing but fun.

On a work note I was sent to St Pete Fla for a work conference that I knew nothing about. I'm a willing traveler though as they have bars in the sky and considering being next to a small window for 4 hours was enough to bring some jack and coke my way...disclaimer(co-workers fly to India now and again and this pales in comparison but I do think their plane is bigger)

Saw my boy Todd Snider last Saturday with some buds...He seemed a bit tired but never missed a beat or lyric....

That's all I got for now...Look at the pics and go about your business......

http://picasaweb.google.com/srussel459/MyAugustAndSeptember#

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

My Hood


I love my neighborhood. You already know that I like my house but the fact that I am within walking distance of my friends is a gift. A house ain't shit if people don't come over and today was a day that made me smile because I had visits. Jon rang the bell shortly after work with 2 beers in hand. He was just saying, 'hey' and wanted to show me the cruiser bike he bought for his son. So we checked out the bike and he got fixated on a weed in my yard and then it turned to my front jungle/flower area. His eyes got a glossy look and he became in a trance like state. I have no idea whats in there but he does. So he goes from pulling a simple weed to a full on assault on my much needed jungle area. A few orders to Tristan to bring gloves and a shovel and it was on. I call him napalm now. Roughly an hour later he had to go do football stuff with his son and 6 full sized bags of shit are waiting for trash pickup. I wasn't even done bagging up the stuff and Jesse rolls home from work and sees me so a beer is in order. Some chit chat and he's off to dinner. 5 mins ago he emails that there is something at my front door. A beer and a book he'd just finished. I have others sets of good friends that live almost as close so I am in good supply. I told Jon while we were working that if somebody had shown me a video 2 years ago of what we were doing at that moment I would not have believed it. Working on some weeds with what would have been a total stranger in a house I didn't recognize. I had to smile and the friends I have in other places know I got enough love for everybody. Peace and love 2nite and btw ..my yard looks much better.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Jealous of the Moon


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and a pic of the king of newcastle....brown ale
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Heard this song for the 1st time on the radio the other day at work. Hit me upside the head but no idea why. Bought the download on Amazon and played it a bunch. Mentioned it to my sis and she said it was one of her all time favorite songs so it must be good. No idea what it means to me but I love it so for my thousands of viewers.....Nickle Creek:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CzJc_TrJN3U&feature=PlayList&p=467F40FD3796133F&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=8

Trying on a brand new dress
But you haven't worn the old one yet.
You've come too far, to turn around now.
Giving up a good fight.
You're as strong as anyone.
You're back when you started from,
I see you're back where you started from.

Staring down the stars, jelous of the moon
You wish you could fly.
But you're staying where you are,
there's nothing you can do,
if you're too scared to try.

Drag your pretty head around
Swearing you're gonna drown with a beautiful sigh and a river of lies.

Staring down the stars, jelous of the moon
You wish you could fly.
But youre staying where you are
there's nothing you can do
if you're too scared to try.

Why don't you call me, I could save you.
Together we'll find a god we can pray to that will take you by the hand.

I hate to see a friend of mine,
Laughing out loud when she's crying inside,
but you've got your pride.

Staring down the stars, jelous of the moon
You wish you could fly.
But you're staying where you are
There's nothing you could do, if you're too scared to try.

You're staring down the stars,
You stay where you are,
You're jelous of the moon, but there's nothing you could do if you're too scared to try,
If you're too scared to try.

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and 1 more...when in Rome

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylslcF-fUeE&feature=PlayList&p=632BCD371A680C9E&index=0&playnext=1

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Work Poop

Now this story doesn't rank all that high as far as poop goes...But today I had the worst experience with having to hold the shit within the boundaries of my colon. I wasn't able to ride at lunch so I went for a quick Whopper. My co-worker was desperately trying to explain something that I would have to finish as this Whopper was making its way thru my system. I sat there wondering if I should apologize for my stomach making noises or just ignore it. There was a 5 minute stretch of road that I wasn't sure I could make. I was listening and concentrating on what she was saying AND how not to shit myself. To make a short story long I didn't make the entire turnover session without leaving for the toilet. I was about 1 colon foot short of completion before I had to run. It got so bad I actually eased out of the chair and put all my weight on 1 arm as I squeezed my sphinker ...prison tight.....During the raising out of the chair I came to my senses and realized I needed to go no matter how long it might prolong my coworker having to stay....So I went and then a little later Buckwheat Zydeco came on the radio with a Led Zeppelin song, 'When the Levee Breaks' ...and my world was right again. And poor Donna has no idea I almost shit myself in her cubicle but the rest of my co-workers do because I love a good poop story.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Up up and away...1st furlough day.




Friday was my 1st furlough day and I thought I didn't want to waste it although I'm not a huge believer that doing anything you're into at the time is a waste.So I started the day by dropping a full container of coffee all over the kitchen floor. I decided I wanted to ride my mtn bike from my house and climb to Spooner Summit and make my way back. I was armed with 2 water bottles - 1 of which I lost early on, a camera and no real agenda. I put the mp3 on random and it was amazing how many good songs it seemed to pick.I took a ton of photos just to show the elevation gain more than anything else. I made a little slide show to a song my sister had sent to me during more difficult times. So the song lives under less difficult times and gives some of the pics a little more life. Thank you sister for giving me meaningful songs over the years that kept me clawing my way forward. For the 2 of you who check on me you have a choice of either looking at the pics or checking out the slide show/music vid.

http://www.vimeo.com/5762604
(my slideshow vid)

http://picasaweb.google.com/srussel459/1stFurloughJuly24th?authkey=Gv1sRgCKy9j-TrjJqVWQ# (just the pics)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Get Lost - as featured in Bike Magazine




WE RIDE FOR MANY REASONS - FOR fun, for fitness, or as an excuse to enjoy the company of a few good friends. But mostly, we ride to escape-to escape the stasis of a life constructed around a 9-to-6 job; to escape the streets of suburbia; and, most importantly, to escape the expected.

On the trail, whether is traverses remote mountains or slices through local parks, anything is possible. Those slivers of dirt, the best of them not more than 18 inches wide, contain infinite possibilities. Each corner brings forth new risks, and new rewards, leading us further from home and deeper into the unknown. So we pray at the altar of dirt, and what we ask for most is an adventure.

Our sense of adventure leads us to local trails and distant destinations. But over the years, even those far-flung places--Fruita, Moab, Pisgah and Whistler--become mundane. Sometimes, another road trip to Utah has all the excitement of running to the grocery store. Even those of us who have never ridden Moab or Whistler have seen enough photos and YouTube clips to wash the excitement clean off those places. Written by Lou Mazzante
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I would just like to add that riding the same trails 100 times can sound boring. There are, like Lou mentions above, new risks with each corner. So the progress of acquiring mtn biking skill is a never ending endeavor. As you age some things you never gave a 2nd thought about become things that require attention. Old bones don't heal as fast as young bones and there is that freeriding thing that I have respect for but it's just not something I care to subject my body too. I'd rather live to ride another day. The picture above was taken in the Lake Tahoe area when 11 of us did a loop that was partially new to most of us and best of all it had many aspects that make up a good day...Challenge, a bit of suffering, feeling of success and the camaraderie that goes along with knowing each and every one of us had to pedal the same 50 switchbacks that became harder with each turn. A few beers doesn't hurt either. So wether you search the world for new trails or ride your backyard singletrak it's all good.

ps....This is not the real reason some call me Rodeo.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Heaven and Hell Part - Who knows.....


Today's heaven and hell theme will start with the idea of those born agains. The almighty born again fucking Christians who have somehow gone off path and feel such guilt that they need some sort of acceptance/forgiveness. The issue I have with this is that if its a simple matter of accepting Christ into your life then why does it matter how you live on earth? I'll tell you why ...Because regardless of Christ most of us have a conscience and that very thing that is implanted in us and makes us feel guilty for behavior that might not really be up to standards. So we pretend to accept this forgiveness and go on about spouting off about the glory of Christ when all I'm really seeing is a motherfucker's who's guilty of making some mistakes in this life and not doomed to hell for it. Leave Christ out of it and live your life! And the funny thing is most born agains don't believe in reincarnation. Go figure. My theme for the month has nothing to do with anything other than Heaven and Hell. I'm not pissed at any Idol Worship that may see you get thru another day. I am pissed at all of the fearful folk who think they may burn in hell for being created by a creator who supposedly created us in his image. Happy Independence Day!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Fathers Day

Fathers Day
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Started off without a hitch. These types of days usually don't get to me but this past fathers days was very different. I somehow flopped in my pops chair and started flicking channels mid way through the day. I came across a documentary on the Travel Channel(I think) called, 'Dream Riders'. I only caught the 2nd 1/2 but what I got from it was this: A father probably mid 40's and his son probably early 20's rode bicycles across the country in hopes of gaining insight into their misunderstandings about each other. Music can bring laughter or tears in a nanosecond with me and it wasn't long into this thing I heard some good music that allowed a nice fathers day remembrance/purging/cleansing. Whatever you wanna call it. It builds, it releases and you continue and the cycle will continue forever and 1 day if you're lucky somebody will have the same thoughts about you regardless of parenthood. Your memory will live on. Concerning this documentary I was weeping and wouldn't you know they rode right through a town my pop played minor league baseball in. Olean, New York. (http://www.baseball-reference.com/bullpen/Olean_Oilers) So believe it or not it felt like he was speaking to me and it made things even more intense. In the end this father and son worked through a ton of misunderstandings and finally as they were at journeys end the son said to his father, 'I love you'. He had enough resent to hold off saying this until the journeys end. So the message is that some things are misunderstood and some things are very understood but need to be healed and there are those things that can probably never be healed. If you still have a pop try your best if possible................The lyrics to the song that got me were as follows: I take it as spoken from the father but I could be wrong and now that I re-read, it could go either way but it's beautiful to me. I immediately went to amazon and bought the soundtrack to DreamRiders(Ari Hest and Dewey Kincade)

Lyrics to One Line Epitaph :
So you say you know just who I am.
But I'm afraid that you don't understand.
'Not a line written in your book.. 'not an angel, and I am not a crook.

You see black and you know just what that means.
You say "no" with so much certainty.
You see a world drawn out on a grid, running from oceans where the buried treasure's hid.

Don't squeeze me in to your photograph.
Don't sum me up to a one line epitaph, skipping from the graph.. a one-trick pony.

Life is simpler when you know just who you are..
til the breakdown comes and you find that you were wrong.
That oppression comes for an extended stay.. stand on the shore and watch your future drift away.

Don't squeeze me in to your photograph.
Don't sum me up to a one line epitaph, skipping from the graph.. a one-trick pony.

A one line epitaph, skipping from the graph.. a one-trick pony.


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and in my mindset I wrote my simple thoughts:
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Fathers day
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I can hear harmonica
I can see a baseball
I can feel laughter
running around my memories
that survive
my father is with me
every single day
and now and again I am reminded
just how close he is
signs come from left field
sometimes I smile and sometimes I cry
today I miss him
but I know I'm not alone

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Flume ride with the local/Oakland/Micigan folk





Rode a nice but challenging 22 mile loop on the Flume and rim trails. Jeff's blog buds and friends of blog buds from Oakland(Morgan, Lauren, Dave, Chuck ) and Michigan(Brian) were able to join us as well as the normal suspects.

few more pics:
http://picasaweb.google.com/srussel459/FlumeRideWithJeffsGang#

2 vids:
http://www.vimeo.com/5361084
http://www.vimeo.com/5360750

Friday, June 26, 2009

Heaven and Hell

Again with this concept. I suppose MJ brought it out. Child molester isn't good by any means if it was indeed true. I would just offer that his father pimped him out as a young child not much different from a hooker. Take a blank slate.... something as harmless as an etch-a-sketch and draw twisted lines in the brain of a child. Is that somebody damned to hell? For all of you motherfuckers who had great parents or even those who didn't. Shut the fuck up. You will find out eventually. Money never equals sanity.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

A day in the life of a good friend......






Doug
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This is the kinda thing that happens to Doug every couple of months.(his words will follow my brief description) Trust me he doesn't look for trouble. I've known him for 15+ years and was the best man at his wedding. But the way the world works, it now and again feeds him when he's having one of those (Limp Bizkit - Break Something) days. I've actually never seen him street fight but I was his corner man at a sanctioned event way down in Georgia and I know nothing much about fighting. I remember the ref telling me to stop beating on the mat screaming, 'hit him' and he also reprimanded Doug for cussing. What a pair! The shot of Jack Daniels sure tasted good after that fight and I didn't even get a broken rib. When I first met him at work in Maryland we became fast friends and bicycle riding was our thing. We were so close in fitness it was just awful now that I think back. We'd do mtn bike races and it didn't matter if I finished next to last as long as he was last. I remember following him in a race for almost 3 hours and I couldn't catch him but I could see him. We finished seconds apart. 1 ride in the mtns of Maryland there were some wild dogs and I remember this like it was yesterday...2 of the guys climbed trees and I was between the tree climbers and Doug and he yelled at those dogs, ' Come on!' and they ran away!. As a road rider we do take quite a bit of abuse and 1 morning he was alone and a Maryland redneck buzzed him while he was cruising. Redneck stops his his big redneck truck that is surely a sign of small penis and continues to spout off about how he hated bike fagots in their tight shorts and such. Doug simply said, 'come over here and get ur ass kicked by a bike fagot' and he promptly punched him 1 time. Doug has always seemed like a fair person to me but maybe I'm biased....Maybe I'm right. So here is a story from June 2009 and a few pics.....I miss you brother...
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Some rasta gansta wanna be threatened to shoot me this morning. He was a black guy guy with long dreads, probably about mid 20's. He cut me off in traffic and then honked at me and flipped me off. I cooly shot him a bird back. He pulled up beside and pointed his fingers at me acted like he was shooting... so I pretended to shoot back. Well he started to follow me and tailed me to a Walgreen parking lot. I pulled into a space and he pulled behind me and blocked me in. I got out and walked over to his passenger window. He said "what's your problem Cracka?". I said "I'm no Cracka. And what the hell is YOUR problem?". He said this and I said that...jawing back and forth. Then I said "And who the hell are you to threaten to shoot me? Do I look like I give a F*** if I get shot?" He said "I don't make threats. I just shoot.". So I said "then Shoot me, bi**h". I could see him shaking and knew (or at least hoped) he was full of crap. He said "I dont need no gun. I'll beat yo A$$". He put it Park and started to get out. I said " you might beat me or I might smack that damn weave out of your head. I did'nt get this ear from eating pu$$y." then I put in my mouth piece and said "cmon fu**er" He said "man, I aint worrying bout you". and drove off.
It was probably a stupid thing to do, but screw it. I'd rather die in a fight than by something boring like a staph infection. Seriously, I have a big nose, cheap clothes, a dead end job and I drive a station wagon. Why wouldn't I want to be shot?

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

One Nation Under Clouds - Jim Griffin





(As published in the Truckee paper Moonshine Ink)
but the clouds are mine......
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Have you ever
looked up to the
clouds floating around in the sky and
seen a bird, or a fish, or a tree? Or,
maybe caught a cloud from the corner
of your eye and wondered, wow,
what's that cloud going to do next?
Clouds seem to have an energy
draw in every collection of ice crystals,
equaled by nothing else offered in
nature. Clouds can twist and turn creating
new forms by the second, opening
up ever changing paths for our visual
cortex to escape into.
Yet, the notion that this mass of
frozen crystals, and winds, floating in
the atmosphere, being an orchestrated
piece of "Natures Puzzle" can conjure
a mixed bag of feelings. Infatuated by
all in nature, it is "The Ancient
Ancestors" of this land who realized
that all these shapes and forms were
more than just that.
Clouds could've represented the
coming of rain, water, and moisture for
their crops. Clouds could've represented
snow, meaning hard times, as harsh
weather meant more difficult hunting.
Clouds surely represented change,
renewal and fertility. Or, clouds
could've simply lit up "Father Sky" in all
his glory. As a whole, they became
known as "The Cloud Nation", of which
was given great reverence by all.
A different time and a different
thought pattern. A "Cloud Nation", an
apparent paradox, in modern terms.
But that was when "Native Mankind"
meant, native, man, kind. A time when
man had kindness for all living things;
a broader respect and more encompassing
balance for each of our
Mother's Nations. Our ancestors understood
unity in the nations, meant unity
for all things put on this earth.
Harmony with nature comes from
the harmony found in nature. Riding
the Summit Chair Lift at Alpine
Meadows Ski Resort on a beautifully
crisp early March morning, my eyes
were invited to observe a few sparsely
littered, cirrus clouds dancing in the
blue of the Tahoe sky. Cirrus clouds
love to swirl and slither as they stretch
and disfigure into new shapes traveling
in jet stream winds.
As the day grew older my sweetie
and I watched cirrus and strato cirrus
clouds being blown to the east. We
were enjoying the 90 inches of new
powder on the slopes, but the ride
back up became as enjoyable as the
face shots going down. So here were
these light and airy clouds being blown
over a high ridge, by lower-level upper
winds. Yes, the perfect formula for
forming a lenticular cloud, more popularly
known as a spaceship cloud.
We watched as the first few clouds
morphed into a long cigar-like shape,
with a bubble in the middle, the classic
"Lenny". Each lift-ride up we watched
as cloud, after cloud, emptied the blue
of the west, and piled up over Mount
Rose into one of the biggest, and most
layered, "Lennies" I'd ever seen. With
eyes wide opened, I drifted into a fresh
space in my mind, just to close them,
setting my mind's eye free, to hover
deep within this massive wonder of
nature.
You know, we're all allowed to be
fascinated with Nature! But it's so easy
to take it all for granted; to gaze to the
sky, and miss it all. Some see no blue,
and it makes them feel blue. Or some
might see clouds, and it reminds them
of bad weather, or aggravates a joint in
their hand. But it is the clouds that add
contrast to the blue, and put the finishing
touches on "Our Mother's" daily
masterpiece.
Clouds are the winds of "Our
Mother's" breath, whisking the moisture
she has gathered from around
her earth, and spreading it through out
her lands. Have you ever noticed the
sun setting against the azure blue of
the western sky? Beautiful, yes. But it
takes only one cloud to reflect, and
bounce the sun's rays about, to show
its true beauty. Or the way a stormy
cumulus cloud can absorb the sun's
energies from the rear, allowing its silver
lining to shine through.
I remember an early winter sunset,
it was cloudless to the west, but, there
were still incredible pastels filling the
sky. I turned to the east to see a huge
pink, and puffy, cloud wrapped around
the top of Mount Rose. Illuminated by
the sun's shimmering rays, as if the
"Cloud Nation" was placing its hands
over the head of the earth, and giving
the mountains a Deeksha Blessing. A
Oneness Blessing for all time. I could
hear the songs of "Our Mothers"
breath in the wind. I could feel
"Mother Earth's" and "Father Sky's"
and "The Cloud Nation's" Oneness.
Talking to a "Good Old Timer" who
recently reminded me how wisdom,
respect and mindfulness are closely
related. This "Modern Elder" made me
think that wisdom and respect for
"Mother Nature" and all of her
Nations' must be passed down. That
respect starts with yourself, and grows
with respect for your elders and your
surroundings. My old friend said, "The
further we get away from nature, the further
we get away from ourselves". We
are part of our surroundings, as much as
our surroundings are part of us.
The missing link in our thought patterns
of today compared to those of
our ancestors is mindfulness. Take the
time to listen to the wind, hear it in
the shimmering of a leaf on a limb.
Take the time to see the wind bring
out the colors of the sun in a cloud,
fracturing it's light and creating a
"Sundog", a mini rainbow in the cloud.
Take the time to feel the wind raise
goose bumps on your arm. Know that
we are as vulnerable as the earth and
the sky, and our actions upon "Mother
Earth" and "Father Sky" and all their
"Nations" are acts upon us in kind.
Love your Mother, and she will love
you. Take the time to give thanks to
"The Cloud Nation" next time it brings
us powder. “Thanks” is the simplest,
and strongest of all types of respect.
The more we learn from Nature, the
more we learn about ourselves.
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~ Jim Griffin loves clouds. He
lives in Truckee and can be reached
at 582-0705, or skichz@earthlink.net.
The photo was taken by Jim at
Mt. Rose.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Flickin Channels


I love TV as much as the next person but what in the heck is going on with reality tv lately..or not so lately...Drama sells I suppose. You know its pretty bad when you can't tell the Alaskan fisherman from the Real Housewives of some city. The lumber jacks are acting like chainsaw wielding drama queens as well. Maybe those jackasses from OCC started it. Scream and yell and break a door. Just interesting how incredibly non creative the forces are in the TV executive world. Something sells and jump on the bandwagon. We can act like jackasses for 24 hours a day with inappropriate behavior but god help us if we show a nipple. A little nipple is what the world needs. That's me theory and I'm sticking to it. If we could combine 4 of these shows into 1 it might actually be interesting. I would put Brett Michaels on the Alaskan fishing boat and combine the lumberjacks with the real house bitches from some city. Maybe have Flavor Flav design a motorcycle shaped like a big ass clock....Who in the world can keep up with a Kardasssians? I think they should have to keep up with the rest of the world. Cheers!

Saturday, May 30, 2009

My House


So it's been awhile since I've owned a house. Finally after much searching and frustration I found the house for me. I love this place and it's walking distance to most of the folks I ride with at lunch.

http://picasaweb.google.com/srussel459/MyHouseMay302009#

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

A Wednesday...must have been


Woke up in a stupor
Guess it's time to face the pooper
Sometimes I feel like superman
Sometimes I'm just recuperating

My head is twisting in its cage
My mind feels like a twenty gage
I hope it's just a passing stage
My heart's not red it's
Beige

And its days like this that burn me
Turn me inside out and learn me
Not to tell you anything I think I know
But I think I'll tell you all that I know
Try to tell you all about it thought you
Might've heard i doubt it
Everyday's a waste I know everyday's a funeral

I'm cutting out I'm feeling lost
I've lost my mind I'm Mr. Frost
I've collected all the evidence
I'm off the edge I'm on the fence

And its days like this that burn me
Turn me inside out and learn me
Not to tell you anything I think I know
Well I think I'll tell you all that I know

I don't want to be alone I want to be a stone
I wanna sink to the bottom of the ocean
And lie there with you til I'm gone

At the bottom of the big blue sea
Just you and me At the bottom of the big blue sea
The bottom of the big blue sea
Just you and me At the bottom of the big blue sea

I know I'll never know nobody
Better than I know myself
But I can't even figure out
Just what the fuck I'm all about

I'm sinking, I'm swimming no wait a minute
I'm drowning no I ain't kidding around
Sometimes i think i'm gonna make it
Sometimes I fake it

And its days like this that burn me
Turn me inside out and learn me
Not to tell you anything I think I know
Well I think I'll tell you all that I know

Anywhere and everywhere
Made up my mind it's getting weird
It's queer to think it might not
Get much better than today I fear
Won't know true happiness
I tried so hard I did my best
My best wasn't good enough
Oh god I hate this stuff

And its days like this that burn me
Turn me inside out and learn me
Not to tell you anything I think I know
Well I think I'll tell you all that I know
I don't want to be alone I want to be a stone
I wanna sink to the bottom of the ocean
And lie there laugh there with you laugh
Yhere with you til I'm gone

At the bottom of the big blue sea
Just you and me At the bottom of the big blue sea
the bottom of the big blue sea
Just you and me At the bottom of the big blue sea

And its days like this that burn me
Turn me inside out and learn me
Its days like this that burn me
Turn me inside out and learn me
And its days like this that burn me
Turn me inside out and learn me
Not to tell you anything I think I know


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHMTvHxWfX8

Saturday, March 28, 2009



Religion Thoughts
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How can people look at others with different beliefs and somehow through the reading of their own preferable text justify superiority? If god created us then he must be present in each and every one of us. Why do we look to the bible to find answers when the answers are written in the DNA and lives of everyone around us? I'm certainly not against looking to the bible for answers but those answers are transitory at best. If you were god, would you create a mysticism so confusing that it would create 50 different factions to understand it? Would you create a son to be a savior to all of humanity and have him not write one word concerning salvation but leave the task of documenting to his followers and the followers of his followers long after the fact? I think this life can be so harsh that its very easy to understand anyone trying to paint a blissful picture of the afterlife. What I don't understand is the rules it takes to get to this supposed afterlife. Live like an animal and ask for forgiveness and pretend to believe and you have a hall pass. I for one like the idea of the hall pass, but is that real? Its very easy to look at text and find many meanings. Is this good or bad? If you were god would you want the answers written in text? If you spoke a sentence to me would you want me to understand it or try to untangle some kind of mystery? It would also be easy to control people with the fear of hell and I can't think of a more cruel idea than that. If you think you are god .....you might just find 100,000 people ready to listen to your godlike ideas and make you rich. I guess I don't have issues if people find peace from religion but for those that want to control, judge and implant fear of hell and reign all knowing....I do have issues.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

1 Year


1 year this week...I arrived in Carson City with my shit. I would like to thank the people who helped me get here and the people who helped me get going. You know who you are. I'm not sure if it feels fast or slow but today I was talking to someone from work and she mentioned it seemed like I had been there forever. Hopefully that's good. I feel lucky on many accounts. The economy made my idea of finding a job scary had I not found this job with a little help from my friend(Jeff). I'm working hard, riding hard, laughing hard and still wondering hard. Wherever you go, there you are. Stupid but so true. 1 big spin cycle but now at least my blankets aren't all on the same side of the washer so things spin a little more freely. I really can't say I miss anything on a large scale because as it turns out most of us are trying so hard to survive that the miss instinct gets buried. I miss many little things. A lot of my friends have fallen out of touch but hopefully not forever. No fault of mine or theirs as I would like to believe.

http://eerygurl.blogspot.com/2008/03/last-leg-carson-city-bound.html

http://blaascott.blogspot.com/2008/03/moved.html

Had to add a recent pic. Yesterdays lunch ride...............

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Raw


I feel raw. Not bad, not good just raw. Nothing new as far as feeling but I thought I'd post a picture of raw and just say it. Raw happens when for good or bad you have to defend your position over and over. It starts usually over bigger things and then amplifies over little things that will make it stink even worse. I back into my parking spot and the wind chime bitch has a year old grudge over my disapproval of her man made noise stuck in a tree in this wind swept place. She sneers at me and I sneer back but soon I'm gonna ask her whats up. But I won't let my raw comments creep into other things that I could easily attack her with just because I'm feeling raw. Even though I'm raw I'll still order a California Roll instead of real raw. I would just like to define it as being in a state where your filter isn't quite there but you're also not aggressive. Fuck the tulips and bring the sushi.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

lunch in early march






Today as I went to work it was dark and raining. In the 10 mins it takes to get to work it was snowing and by 11:30 the roads were dry and it was sunny. So I headed out with J-Mo and Big Jon. A few pics taken from my old failing camera. It put the effects on these pics all by itself.

few more pics here:
http://picasaweb.google.com/srussel459/2009LunchRideMarch3#

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Jeremy Lusk


I was talking with Jeff earlier in the week about stunts and such and I mentioned how I couldn't believe none of the freestyle guys had been killed yet. That sport is extreme. Today at work another friend texted that Jeremy Lusk missed a trick and was killed. Now I don't know a thing about this guy but it got me thinking about fleeting life. I would imagine the guy lived it well for a 24 year old. Peace to him and his family.
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Fleeting life spit out of me in 2 minutes...so here it is... People always say live each day like it's your last but who can do that. Can you ride your bicycle the same way for 100 miles as you could for 1 mile. I think not. So the question lies in balance.
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Fleeting Life
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fleeting..life
going going gone
fleeting life
back flip ..slightly not
suicide bomber
restaurant
fleeting life
never knowing
when, how, why
learn the rules and then
you go
finish the puzzle and it finishes you
fleeting life
never knowing
run, eat and hide
disease
may just find
fleeting life
how much do you live
and how much do u save
nobody knows
nobody knows

Sunday, February 8, 2009

World Eraser







A few months ago Brian and I were emailing back and forth about ideas for Helen's birthday. We kicked around Vegas and I thought, 'Come to Carson' and just that quick he got tickets for a long weekend here. So it was done. I picked them up late Thursday night and off to the Silver Legacy we went. As always the 1st night tends to run way into the next day and this was no exception. Helen fell out sometime in the middle of the night but Brian and I kept on going. He could do no wrong gambling. Roulette was the game of choice and Helen's bday was the 31'st so that ended up being the number of choice and boy did it win. I was even able to hit it a few times. B/H are die hard Steeler fans and wouldn't you know we ended at a table full of Cardinal fans. After some friendly trash talking Brian started a new plan. Put 100 bucks on the 3rd 12.(2 to 1 odds). He lost the 1st one to the Cardinal fans delight but not to worry. He spited them with the same bet and won and continued to win 4 more times while I was losing much smaller bets. We stumbled out of there and proceeded to search for food. It can be very confusing to navigate casinos that are connected when you've been drinking Newcastle and shots of Grand Marnier for 8 hours. After asking for directions a few times we made it back to the room with our shitty sandwiches. The casinos are not like they used to be in that at 6am they are completely dead and food is rare. After inhaling our shitty sandwiches Brian fell out and I stayed up for a bit talking to Helen. The kind of deep one sided talking that only occurs when 1 person is wound up drunk and the other is sober and has just been awakened. After a few hours sleep and room service we headed to the lake. We found some rocks in Sand Harbor to climb on and just played out in the sun for an hour. We hadn't gambled in at least 7 hours so it was time for some South Tahoe action. Nothing happening there so over Kingsbury Grade and back to CC for some pizza and rest. Saturday saw some hiking out behind the apt. I had to show them my hills. My training and thinking ground where I solve all the worlds problems...alone...Later they turned me on to IN @ Out burgers which were really good and since we were in south Carson I had to show them the Casino Fandango(my favorite place). At the CF I introduced them to Margo who is also my favorite bartender and we tried our hand at my old staple...Caveman Keno ...no luck and it was back to Roulette in which Brian proceeded to win again as I continued to lose. After the very 1st nite I commented how his wallet wouldn't close and mine was as skinny as a room key. We had reservations for Super Bowl Sunday at the new Tuscany Towers at the Peppermill. We checked in Sunday and found the casino to be filled with drunk folks. Not just drunk folks but drunk folks wound up on sports adrenaline. Since our room was so nice we watched the thing there in peace and quite. Afterwards we ventured down into the mayhem and found a nice quite bar or so it seemed. Shortly after we got comfortable a group of drunks came in. I kept hearing this dude saying really loud, 'uncle Brett...show me your guns'..over and over and over again.... and 30 minutes later I found myself telling one of them to get outta my space. He had dreamed up something to do with Helen not liking his buddy(uncle Brett ..with the guns)...shewwweee... Both Brian and I thought it best to leave so down to the casino floor we went where it wasn't too bad. In 20 minutes I won back all the money I had lost over the previous days and we even ran into Margo and her mom gambling in the same area. I have a picture of my wallet next to his and it was no longer a room key. So I'd like to thank the drunk guy that kept yelling, 'Show me your guns uncle Brett'...no less than 100 times. If not for that...who knows....So it was a successful, 'World Eraser' weekend as both Helen and Brian needed some downtime as they both have ailing parents and over they years they've helped me in time of need and in times of no need. They liked this area so much they will be back fo sho.....I know I'm lucky to be here but when my friends visit and are astounded by the beauty of the mountains and the debauchery factor it makes me feel even that much better. I think a smokey casino balances out the beautiful mountains perfectly.

http://picasaweb.google.com/srussel459/BrianhelensVisitJan2009?authkey=uOVgb1lAxbE#